"DiffiCuLt TiMe"

I hate this situation...

I want to shout and say "Lord, enough!! why you leave me and take everything in my life??!!"
I want to cry, but i can't...

I want to tell someone, about what i feel... want to write down here, in my blog.. but think again that is not good.

I just playing guitar, singing, only make expression with my songs... and also create a song... hahahha
something that i never thought before...

i sat in my sofa in the living room, and watching channel 21 but, it's not interesting for me.. and then suddenly i took a papper and pen then i wrote down my first song... after that sent it to my teacher cos he said he want to make the aransement of the song...

a few days ago, i was recording in his studio room. The song is Winter Child, sang that song for my precious one... almost success...

I will finish it this week...

Impatient to hear my song...

Father, what is my dream?? 
where is my dream??
Father, what is life?? 
what is life if only me stay still?? 
what is life if i don't know what i want in my life??
what is life if i don't know what i want to do in my life??
i'm being confuse and going crazy now...