I know that He send the cheonsa beside me

My Ms. Cheonsa...

I dont know what I have to say about her, My Ms. Cheonsa.
Maybe I'm not just a lucky girl, nope... I know I'm special thats why so many good luck come, hahaha... yeaahhh, but bad luck also come, depends on you how you vote it.

Today, I just go to office like usual, because today I have so many things that I have to do, prepare the rooming list for a group tomorrow, card verivy all the credit card for arrival tomorrow, create all the reservationt by email n fax... yaaacckkss, one thing that made me headache is I didnt get enough time to sleep last night, only 3 hours.
Its my fault, cos i watch korean drama lol.

And got surprise at office, I read email from my GM, so bad the email talked about we have to meet the Regional Director of Sales Marketing from Aston International, and I dont prepare anything...

Nervous, Scare, Panic, all make my feel complicated. Riri was really busy and I cant tell her what I feel, and then I bother her and asked her to lend me her iphone so I can whats up my manager, since my manager in Singapore to do sales trip for a week, she will come back next week on monday.

Me   : Buu
Me   : Novita ini
Ms. Cheonsa : Ya??
Me   : Buu, do you know that today we have a meeting with Ms. Fridi?? I just little bit afraid, because I just new in this job as a reservationt, so I'm afraid that I cant speak well with Ms. Fridi, now arri go first to meet her. What I have to do??
Ms. Cheonsa : Nothing... U calm down first
Ms. Cheonsa : U have done good job dear no need to worry
Ms. Cheonsa : Dia tanya2 gimana selama ini
Ms. Cheonsa : Just tell the truth aja, cos I got nothing to hide
Ms. Cheonsa : So should u
Ms. Cheonsa : Kalo memang saya kurang apa, silahkan di inform
Ms. Cheonsa : Probably di tanya2 product knowledge
Ms. Cheonsa : Rate Grid
Ms. Cheonsa : Golden Rules
Ms. Cheonsa : Novita mau tanya apa?? Or anything u want to know.. yang kira2 kamu blm pede
Me   : Will she ask about u?? aa.. I'm not good at product knowledge, and golden rules, since sometimes I dont have a good time to learn all of product, so bad today just come, and I have to face her. But I will, and If she ask about you, I will tell the truth who you are as my manager :)
Ms. Cheonsa : Thankss babe, just tell the truth ya :)
Me   : Nothing, I will read all the information
Ms. Cheonsa : Ga papa, u tell that kmu masuk in the middle of peak season, all product knowledge u learn by doing
Ms. Cheonsa : Some information shared but hasnt been properly trained cos of the short of manning, while operation must go on rite ?
Ms. Cheonsa : Yes, she pasti will ask how I manage the team
Ms. Cheonsa : Just tell the truth
Me   : Yess buu... Thank you so much, I will answer all of her question with confidence. Buu, whoever you are, just be Bu Stella that I ever know, and whatever they say about you, you are my manager :)
Me   : Wish me luck ya buu
Me   : I know that I can
Me   : Thank you so much :)
Me   : I'm not afraid anymore^^, Its my turn now :)
Ms. Cheonsa : Yes, of course u can dear, u have potential remember that
Ms. Cheonsa : :)
Ms. Cheonsa : Good Luck

I'm so lovely, I know that.. He send me an angel, a real angel.. She's the one who knows and who can understand me..

I send a message to Riri, eventhough I just have 0,00000000001% it doesnt mean that I'm being hopeless rite??
thats really important, 0,00000000001% still can give me hope.
I know here, no one support me or give me a chance to prepare my dream, But Ms. Cheonsa she give a chance to prepare my dreams, and build it then one day I can see my dream being come true.

I really thanks to Riri, cos she recomend me to join with this company, eventhough no one like me here, no one accept me here except Ms. Cheonsa n Riri , but I know this way He make it for me, so I can be Debora Novita Ayu Saraswati.

I really thanks to Mr. Manado someone who i love now, eventhough we still dont know each other but you know what?? I will, Yes I will, I will do my best so Ms. Cheonsa proud of me, and you can see me^^
Thank you eventhough we still dont know each other  but you still can make me smile, only think about youu, I can happy and smile in a whole day^^
Could you please waiting for me, I really work hard to go to the next level so you can see me?
I will work hard, Yes I will, for Ms. Cheonsa, for Riri, for you Mr. Manado, and for my DREAM and FUTURE^^.
Please wait for me =)

Dear God, thank you. Whatever they say about me, I just want to be my self, I just want to show the love, to show the way how you can build your dream.
I dont want to give up. I can be right now, Its not easy, so I dont want to waste the time.

Thank you, Thank you so much. I want to meet Ms. Cheonsa soon, and see her smile. Miss her a lot.

Oyeaahh God... Can I ask you somethind that really important?? Please bless n stay beside Ms. Cheonsa, Riri, Vivi, and Mr. Manado =)
Love them so much^__________^
and thank you cos You make me being a special one^^

今日

おかさん。。。私の人生の意味は何ですか？

私は。。。夢を失った、目的を失った。

 何のためにその後の私の人生？





おかさん。。。私はただ普通に生きたい。

それから、私は本当に正常に戻って私の夢と人生を見つけることを期待。




 おかさん。。。私の人生の意味は何ですか？

Love is Friendship..??

Everyday... Everytime... Everyone talking about LOVE, Love... Love is Friendship, I really dont understand about LOVE...

A years ago i have closed with someone.. But He's not mine.. haha

Its been along time i never feel fall in love again.

It's bullshit if i dont need a man, of course i need, but i dont know why? I actually selected every man close to me, I do not want to arbitrarily make him my boyfriend.

My mom ask me, when will you have a boyfriend, i said i dont know, of course i want as soon as possible. But i still want to waiting.

I wish He's not Indonesian.. haha

I want He's from Korea or Japan, or Malay (maybe...)

I dont like bule... LOL

they are handsome, but i dont want to close with them or have a relationship with them, they just nice as a friend..

I wish him (my prince i mean) not too tall and not too short for physically, I wish him fashion style (i mean neat and clean, and always maintain his perfomance), have a sense of humor, can cook, can singing, can playing music haha (its like a prince in a fairy tale). Yeah, its just wish.

Sometimes I feel lonely every christmas and valentine day come, i want to spend it with someone who i love, yuph i spend it everyyear with my mom ^^ LOL

Sometimes, I think if i have boyfriend i cant hang out with friends, traveling, stay at home and watch Korean drama haha..

But sometimes I feel hate if i have to traveling alone without anyone..

But for sure i just want to wait, till that man come to my life..

For sure, i just think that maybe love come when we're being friend..

I listened this songs.. And it makes me realized that i need someone (a man) stay by my side ... 

Don't you know that I want to be more than just your friend
Holding hands is fine
But I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen
If you'd only see me in a different light
Baby when we finally get together
You will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
Don't treat me like I was ice

Please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine

Don't you know that I want to be more than just your friend
Holding hands is fine
But I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen
If you'd only see me in a different light
But baby when we finally get together
You will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
And don't treat me like I was ice

Oh please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
And don't treat me like I was ice

Oh please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine
And if you'd only say you love me darling
Things would really work out fine

Proud To Be Myself

such as the title of this post...
hahaha... I really proud to be my self..
I was being a tour guide for 3 days for my guest from Jakarta. They are women and they are best friend.

I was being their tour guide from morning until night, you know for the first I feel awkward because don't know what i have to explain, cos actually be their tour guide are their request.
Thanks God cos i feel stressed because of my job, and then have 3 days for refreshing with my guests.

1st Day, I picked them up at airport and then after that took them to lunch at Ayam Betutu near from airport, after that took them to Khrisna (pusat oleh-oleh) here I have to explained best things that they need to bought.
You know, be a tour guide for aunty really really need extra patient lol
and then last destination was Tanah Lot, here I was being their photographer lol, I thought that be a tour guide not too easy, right??
We finish our tour around 8pm, and I still didnt eat anything for dinner..

2nd Day, Was really fun we had visited Turtle Island, watch them try jetski, visit GWK (Garuda Wisnu Kencana), and then Uluwatu Temple, and dinner at Seafood Restaurant at Kedonganan, yuuumm..

3nd Day, I have to woke up early because the destination quiet far from Denpasar Area, we went to Ubud Market, had lunch at Bebek Tepi Sawah, Sukowati Market... aiyo these aunty really loves shopping and I have to help them bargain the price of all things that they really want to bought. Crazy, i have to bargain till cheapest... aiyooo...

After finish shopping till i got dehidration, finally we spend our afternoon time at Ayana Resort to saw sunset at sunset rock bar, its apart of Ayana Resort. Hahahah... Actually the title "Proud to be my self" bacause here I learned photography from my guest, and after taking some pictures, and preview all pictures, hahaha I'm being proud... all are perfect. Love Love Love the picture..
The first time I really proud just because of the photo's result... haha

4rd day was the last day, I just help them to take all of their stuff in market, and shop like pie susu, pia legong, sate lilit, and also bought their lunch babi guling, because feel happy and enjoy the days I forgot to have lunch..
after all stuff done, packing and evrything done, then we dropped them in airport...



During 3 days, I learned much precious things... Thanks to God for that change^^