"DiffiCuLt TiMe"

I hate this situation...

I want to shout and say "Lord, enough!! why you leave me and take everything in my life??!!"
I want to cry, but i can't...

I want to tell someone, about what i feel... want to write down here, in my blog.. but think again that is not good.

I just playing guitar, singing, only make expression with my songs... and also create a song... hahahha
something that i never thought before...

i sat in my sofa in the living room, and watching channel 21 but, it's not interesting for me.. and then suddenly i took a papper and pen then i wrote down my first song... after that sent it to my teacher cos he said he want to make the aransement of the song...

a few days ago, i was recording in his studio room. The song is Winter Child, sang that song for my precious one... almost success...

I will finish it this week...

Impatient to hear my song...

Father, what is my dream?? 
where is my dream??
Father, what is life?? 
what is life if only me stay still?? 
what is life if i don't know what i want in my life??
what is life if i don't know what i want to do in my life??
i'm being confuse and going crazy now...

You're Not Forgotten

"Happy Birthday to you.... Happy Birthay to you.... Happy Birthday Dear Ovira.... Happy Birthday to you...."
"Saengil Chukahamnida... Saengil Chukahamnida.... Saengil Chukahamnida.... Saranghanun Uri Ovira.... Saengil Chukahamnida...."
"Chuk ni sen re khuai le, chuk ni sen re khuai le, chuk ni sen re khuai le, chuk ni sen re khuai le"
(hahaha... I dont know the song in Mandarin language)

Happy birthday dearest Ovira, I wish you will always happy, Always full bless from Heaven, always full Happiness from Jesus,..
I wish you will meet your prince soon..
I really thanks to God, cos I have you in my life... thanks to God cos we're being best friend and sister not for a few time, but almost ten years, I want to being grow old with you, get happiness together, see success come to each other.
I never forget your birthday. Really thank you of your care, actually i prepare a gift, but didnt have a time to give it to you...
and also worried that you dont like it..
I love you the way you are...
I love you as my sister...
I love you as my best friend...
I love as someone who really care of me...
Sorry still cant make you proud of me.. proud have a sister like me... really sorry...

Thanks for being such a great friend and sister...
Please being happy everyday. Love you and miss you dear Ovira...